Hard to Get

Is there a moment when you look at a relationship you have with a potential guy and think "hey, I'm being pretty open and he is playing it off like he's not interested..." The classic move for any girl or guy is to play hard to get. Not me ladies and gents...I'm hard to handle. But I sometimes ask myself, if a guy that I like is playing hard to get with me, how many other girls is he playing? Life is viewed in many ways, and to most guys I go after, it's a game.

I have tried to understand the concept of playing the field, and playing guys of each other...It's not me. Most of my friends think that I am some girl who gets drunk and hooks up with a weekend fling. NOT TRUE! Yes, I'll admit that when I've had a few tequila shots, I tend to do some crazy things, but I have never intentionally hurt someone that I know of.

So here it is...I quit. I won't play along to your stupid games of hard to get or hard to handle. You are who you are, and I am who I am. I don't chase boys, I replace them. I am not interested in mind games. You say its to avoid getting hurt, but the last time I checked, relationships are about vulnerability and trust. Being vulnerable comes with risks, but I'm not willing to take them if you're not willing to.

So here's some advice to whoever is out in the blogging world...don't play games. Be honest, truthful, and straight to the point. If you don't want to get hurt, then don't lead an innocent friendship into something else and mislead a person...you may not get hurt, but others will...

2010

Bloggers,

I know that one day when I'm no longer blogging...someone will come across this page and see that my information on life, love and sex is true. But for now, if anyone reads my blog, welcome back to 2010.

Sorry I havent been blogging lately. I'm super busy with work and school and, obviously, my fucked up life. So heres' the tip for 2010....Don't go to parties where you think you\re going to be okay, but you aren't sure. If you have a bad feeling about something...take it to heart. I was in that situation last weekend...and let me say, a knee to the balls really helps if a guy tries to take your pants off.

Sorry it's so short, but I have to go cake face myself and pretend to love me life now. Ttyl faithful readers.

- Troubled Teen<3

I Miss You

Hey Bloggers and readers,

So today I spent most of the day hanging out with my mom, and that was really great. I've been learning on how to deal with anger and emotions, and how not to start blow up fights, and I'm getting better. Slowly recovering from all my insecurites still. But when my dad called, my mom went off to talk to him, so while I was sitting there watching tv, some irrelavent movie, there was a scene, and in it this little boy was running around with his grandpa, and it made me realize that I truly mi my grandpa. He's been gone for over 2 years now, but I still really miss him. It's hard to let go of the past in some areas of one's life, when you're trying to fix it in other areas. So here it is, my problem for the day, I miss you

Goodbye Grandpa

My heart won't you let go...and I need you to know
I miss you...

- Troubled Teen <3

Today's Lesson...Don't do things to fit in...

Hey Bloggers,

So today was a shitty day for me. It started out pretty good. I had a therapy appointment, which I desperatly needed so badly considering I am somewhat going crazy in my life right now. After that, I went to see some family while I waited for 2 pm to roll around. I met up with a girlfriend of mine and we had a blast. I actually forgot how much my life really sucks for a whole 4 hours. We went to see a movie, Jennifer's Body, and I have to say that I hate Megan Fox because she's so fucking pretty. AND THIN! Jesus Christ, girl, GAIN SOME WEIGHT!! Anywho...still jelous she is so hot. The movie was quite freaky, so I would definatly recommend it to anyone who likes those jumpy creepy twisted movies. It's definatly going to be bought when it comes out on DVD. When I got home, that is when the daily fight with the Madre started. Me and my mom don't see eye to eye on some subjects. And recently, I've been getting into a bit of trouble, and she thinks I'm doing this to fit in. Let me tell you something about life. Don't do shit to fit in. You should NEVER change yourself for anyone. Don't change your opinions, or your fashion, or your quorky habits to fit in or impress someone...honestly, once your out of highschool, all those people you tried to impress...they aren't going to care 4 months from graduation. I know. I Never did the stuff I did in highschool to fit in. I realized by grade 9 that I was never going to fit in. Oliver James one said " Why are you trying so hard to fit in, when you wereborn to STAND OUT?" I took this to heart and this is my motto, so I will never let a friend, a guy or even a priest change who I am. So my mom didn't realize that the reason I got into this stuff was because I was dpressed, angry, and stressed about a lot of different things at the time. Would I go back and change my life now? Maybe, but only if I could change certain things about myself. So here it is ladies and gents....the troubled truth....till next time

-Troubled Teen<3

♫Goodbye to You♫

For all the people who've been hurt or broken...this is for you.

My dedication is to my best friend whose having the hardest time choosing what her heart needs between what her heart wants. Baby girl, I love you, but the choice is yours....listen to your heart and consider these lyrics to figure out what you need to do...all my love ♥

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

- Troubled Teen <3

too long

Hey Readers,

I know they're may not be any of you reading this right now, but I can garuntee that soo there will be more people. I want to start of by saying I'm sorry I bailed on you all for the last 7 and a half months or so....I was going through a rough patch. My family life is fucked and I really don't know what to do right now. Life is complicated. That's just it. And when you feel like your friends, the only people who keep you on this god forsaken planet, have forgotten you...its the worst feeling in the world. I don't get why people are so complicated and I have a feeling that I really don't want to know. So I'm guessing you want to know why it took 7 and a hlf months to sign on and blog again...well you'll never know the true deats about what has happened. All you need to know is that I had some troubles but Im going to be ok. Thanks fo all of you who have stuck beside me through the troubles....ilu

Bloggin the Truth > Relationships

What is a relationship?

- something that two MATURE people can talk about things that may not like to be shared with the entire world. It's something that is more secluded from your usual group of friends. The thing is, if you can't find someone who can't get their act togetherm then you are really wasting your time, because from first hand experience, it's not always pleasent to be in a "unidentified" relationship. Guys are very predictable, which is great, however, girls aren't which means that sometimes, gentlemen, you're gunna have to put some actual freaking effort into what you're trying to make.

I mean seriously, I know a friend that was crushing on this older guy, and she finally got the courage(or was just too plastered to wait until they dicussed soberly) to ask him what the hell was up with them. This guy said that he didn't know she liked him THAT much, and that he was crazy about her. Well, afterthat, he wanted her to tell him when she was ready to date, and a week later she told him he was ready....but he did nothing. So then what the hell?? She's just down right sick of the nothingness between them....so I'm proud to say for her, that T....she's completely over you...forever!

A relationship needs to work both ways, no just one. So figure it out before commiting yourself into something that you may be really unhappy with. Thats all the bloggin I'm doing for now.
Troubled Teen<3