I Miss You

Hey Bloggers and readers,

So today I spent most of the day hanging out with my mom, and that was really great. I've been learning on how to deal with anger and emotions, and how not to start blow up fights, and I'm getting better. Slowly recovering from all my insecurites still. But when my dad called, my mom went off to talk to him, so while I was sitting there watching tv, some irrelavent movie, there was a scene, and in it this little boy was running around with his grandpa, and it made me realize that I truly mi my grandpa. He's been gone for over 2 years now, but I still really miss him. It's hard to let go of the past in some areas of one's life, when you're trying to fix it in other areas. So here it is, my problem for the day, I miss you

Goodbye Grandpa

My heart won't you let go...and I need you to know
I miss you...

- Troubled Teen <3

Today's Lesson...Don't do things to fit in...

Hey Bloggers,

So today was a shitty day for me. It started out pretty good. I had a therapy appointment, which I desperatly needed so badly considering I am somewhat going crazy in my life right now. After that, I went to see some family while I waited for 2 pm to roll around. I met up with a girlfriend of mine and we had a blast. I actually forgot how much my life really sucks for a whole 4 hours. We went to see a movie, Jennifer's Body, and I have to say that I hate Megan Fox because she's so fucking pretty. AND THIN! Jesus Christ, girl, GAIN SOME WEIGHT!! Anywho...still jelous she is so hot. The movie was quite freaky, so I would definatly recommend it to anyone who likes those jumpy creepy twisted movies. It's definatly going to be bought when it comes out on DVD. When I got home, that is when the daily fight with the Madre started. Me and my mom don't see eye to eye on some subjects. And recently, I've been getting into a bit of trouble, and she thinks I'm doing this to fit in. Let me tell you something about life. Don't do shit to fit in. You should NEVER change yourself for anyone. Don't change your opinions, or your fashion, or your quorky habits to fit in or impress someone...honestly, once your out of highschool, all those people you tried to impress...they aren't going to care 4 months from graduation. I know. I Never did the stuff I did in highschool to fit in. I realized by grade 9 that I was never going to fit in. Oliver James one said " Why are you trying so hard to fit in, when you wereborn to STAND OUT?" I took this to heart and this is my motto, so I will never let a friend, a guy or even a priest change who I am. So my mom didn't realize that the reason I got into this stuff was because I was dpressed, angry, and stressed about a lot of different things at the time. Would I go back and change my life now? Maybe, but only if I could change certain things about myself. So here it is ladies and gents....the troubled truth....till next time

-Troubled Teen<3

♫Goodbye to You♫

For all the people who've been hurt or broken...this is for you.

My dedication is to my best friend whose having the hardest time choosing what her heart needs between what her heart wants. Baby girl, I love you, but the choice is yours....listen to your heart and consider these lyrics to figure out what you need to do...all my love ♥

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

- Troubled Teen <3